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The power of Gizzi Erskine compels you

I expect I shall be back to whinging about my Tormented Nights soon enough, but in the meantime here is some glee.

I've been doing the Cook Yourself Thin Thing since I went on maternity leave and found myself in possession of free time and an absent sense of purpose, so cooking healthy meals became a way to give me both. Then I got into the habit of it, and when the Best Baby In the World came along I kept it up and I have lost a stone since August, which means all kinds of glee and shaking of my new and improved ass all over the house. I now have another stone left to lose to reach my Goal Weight (and two stone away from my ideal weight but meh to that).

I am essentially a stress/boredom eater, so diets don't work for me even if we don't factor in my devotion to cheese*. Food has never been just fuel to me. I love it, I adore it and the moment I would try dieting the thought of everything that I COULDN'T eat would depress and anger and frustrate me and essentially shove me into the loving arms of the nearest pizza.

That would in turn start the cycle of guilt and self-disguist, all woven into an intricate braid of toxicity with my low self-esteem and the cycle would roll on and keep itself in place. Over time I learned how to undo most of the emotional angle (certainly much of the emotional fallout) but the weight crept up and I consoled myself with the knowledge that at least on my tall and broad frame I carreid weight well.

And then along came Gizzi Erskine and her magical ideas about all these wonderful, delightful, tasty things you could eat and drink and just like that my new self was born.

To illustrate here I am in a pair of jeans and boots that I haven't been able to zip up individually, let alone together, in almost three years.


So fuck you Polycistic Ovaries and in your face cabbage soup and every other eating fad I have ever followed in the hope of downsizing my ass. And fuck you to every person who mocked or bullied or belittled me because of my shape; you didn't help, all you ever did was make me sadder and fatter. In your face anyone who wanted to reduce my eating to sad, plasticky, powdery food and you Sneery Dietician with your long list of pulses and gruels.

*I don't think I have ever met a cheese I didn't like.


( 12 comments — Leave a comment )
Nov. 27th, 2010 04:04 pm (UTC)
Blimey! That picture should have a warning label because it's scorching hot!
Nov. 27th, 2010 04:06 pm (UTC)
P.S. Your shape and size has always been gorgeous. Your height and figure meant your weight looked statuesque and beautiful. I have never seen you look anything but amazing.
Dec. 9th, 2010 05:20 pm (UTC)
Nov. 27th, 2010 05:14 pm (UTC)
You look fab! I love food too, Brian is greatly amused by my ability to recall exactly what I ate when reminiscing about just about anything, food is always an important part of my memories!
Dec. 9th, 2010 05:20 pm (UTC)
Mine too! I remember entire journeys by what I ate. I am still nostalgic about the Best Sushi In The World I had in Chicago. And the alcoholic milkshake. (not the same meal).
Nov. 27th, 2010 06:32 pm (UTC)
My God, Nina, where did you carry two babies? And how did you get smoking hot in four months (well,not that you weren't before)? Sign me up!

Let's just say food and I go way back, by far my longest relationship. How do women in foodie countries like France and Italy stay so trim? I'd be in serious trouble.
Dec. 9th, 2010 05:19 pm (UTC)
Although my body appears to contract every ailment known to man while pregnant, afterwards it does snap back into its previous shapelessness fairly quickly indeed.

I do crave and have proper foodie things too - I just try to balance it out. Eg. I've had lots of cheese and cake over the weekend in honour of husband's birthday, so this week I have cooked lots of low cal but flavoursome soups to compensate and it has worked better than my previous strategy of 'in for a penny, in for a pound'.
Nov. 28th, 2010 09:06 am (UTC)
Whenever I have seen you in person you have always looked great, but that picture is awesome!

Also, I may have to look into this cookbook.
Dec. 9th, 2010 05:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)

The cookbook is not so good for vegeterians I think (although the one with the pink cover does have some). On the other hand a lot of the recipes can be adapted - I have made vegetable rich chicken curry without the chicken, and I have made hot and sour Chicken soup with quorn instead.
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Dec. 9th, 2010 05:13 pm (UTC)
Re: Fierce
I gave up the weekly/monthly fasts. It just seemed too stressful and angry-making. I do them on an occasional basis in the summer, but no, it wasn't working for me ultimately.

Also, you are alive! I am delighted. How are you? How are things in your world? I have missed you.
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Dec. 11th, 2010 07:34 pm (UTC)
Re: Fierce
yes please. nina.san@gmail.com if you don't already have it.
Mar. 24th, 2015 03:44 pm (UTC)
I love cook yourself thin. Been following it myself.
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