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Interview meme...

Ask me three questions if you so desire. They can be anything you like.

Then copy and paste this into your own journal.

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twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 04:25 pm (UTC)
1. Is that you in the icon?
2. If you could invite 5 people to a dinner party (dead or alive, real or fiction) who would it be and why?
3. When's your birthday? (I just had to steal that one *s*)
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 05:09 pm (UTC)
1) Yes, that's me. :) The picture is at least a year old but I don't really look different.

2) Neil Gaiman- because I think he's intelligent, witty and very very interesting - I lust after that man and I'd relish the opportunity to spend an evening with him.

Derren Brown (he's a hypnotist)- another interesting quirky individual who was also quite funny; I liked him a lot and I think he'd be a sound addition to a dinner party because he was a good conversationalist and he's a very charismatic man.

Nikola Tesla- because he was quirky and a genius and largely misunderstood and unappreciated in his lifetime and I'd love a chance to ask him about his ideas and visions.

Nance- because I haven't seen her for a while and I think she'd enjoy meeting the above individuals.

My dad- because I miss him.

3) July 22nd :)
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:06 pm (UTC)
You're pretty. *s*

My dad was one of the people I chose when the same question was asked to me as well. *s*
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:23 pm (UTC)
You're pretty. *s*

thank you. :)

my dad is dead... is your father still alive?
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:24 pm (UTC)
Nope, he's been dead for 15 years or so now...
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:26 pm (UTC)
heh. mine too.
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:30 pm (UTC)
How did yours go? (just smack me if I'm asking too personal questions *s*)
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:39 pm (UTC)
it's ok. :)

he suffered a massive brain haemorrage during surgery to operate on his aneurysm. but the fact that he had been committing slow suicide for years with cigs and alcohol also contributed.

what about yours? (if you want to talk about it)
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:42 pm (UTC)
Mine killed himself. Gun shot to the head. People still wonder how I can manage to not be angry with him for it. *s*
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 06:56 pm (UTC)
Some anger is normal I think, but sustained anger is really knackering.

I can see my dad as human, I can understand why he did the things he did and not be angry with him for hurting, or being confused, or choosing to give up on life- me as human, the adult is at peace with all that. But the child in me at times is still really angry with him for leaving (and for the instances of crap parenting).

The paradoxes of the human mind. ;)
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 07:02 pm (UTC)
I could never be angry. He was a wonderful parent and I love him dearly, but he was so miserable. How could I not feel that he deserved the freedom he longed for? *s* How could I possible ask him to suffer a miserable life? That, in my mind, is more selfish than him killing himself. Much more. But people generally can't seem to see it that way. "But what about you?" Yeah, what about me? Of course I miss him, but the pain I've gone through because he died can't compare to the pain he went through being alive.
I'm rambling, aren't I? *s*
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 07:16 pm (UTC)
I'm rambling, aren't I? *s*

It's all right, I happen to quite enjoy your rambling. :)

I've been suicidal enough times to understand the despair someone might feel and I don't believe in *preserving life at any cost*. A reason why I had a difficult time with anger was that it took me a while to work out that me being angry with my dad at times did not mean I loved him any less. Feeling the anger, learning how to acknowledge it and release it was important for me because in certain aspects I had very black/white thinking but I feel largely at peace with it now. Going through the anger worked for me but it's all relative and individual.

Is selfishness necessarily a bad thing?
twistedserious
Apr. 13th, 2004 07:21 pm (UTC)
being angry with my dad at times did not mean I loved him any less.

Now there's something I wish more people would understand. *s*

Is selfishness necessarily a bad thing?

No, of course not. It depends on if a selfish action hurts another person in the process. And even then then the benefits must be weighed against the harm.
rainsinger
Apr. 13th, 2004 08:30 pm (UTC)
I think I agree with that :)

i can hear little twittery birds outside. i wonder at what point sleeping stopped seeming like a good use of my time....
dubaiyan
Apr. 14th, 2004 07:01 am (UTC)
God I've done that too often
...been on the Net all night and then suddenly the dawn chorus assaults my ears ;)
rainsinger
Apr. 14th, 2004 04:56 pm (UTC)
Re: God I've done that too often
teee heeee. :)
it's all part of my canny plan to not be assaulted by nightmares by not going to sleep ;)
nanji
Apr. 15th, 2004 09:45 pm (UTC)
"Thank you for you dinner invitation. Unfortunately..."
THANK YOU !

I'd love to meet them all, it's true.

I'll sit under the table and tie all their shoelaces together.
You can hand me down plates of food.

love
N*
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rainsinger
Apr. 14th, 2004 05:08 pm (UTC)
*thinks*

1. In childhood- I guess I was about 5 or 6 and it was a rainy day in Montenegro and I remember running through the wet grass in my bare feet and watching with my friends the clouds come down on the hills and feeling all this excitement and happiness- like anything was possible, like something termendous was about to happen and I was part of something much larger than myself, something grand and beautiful.

In adulthood- Dobrica

2. That I'm not ugly and that it's ok to be in love. :)

3. When I was a kid I couldn't imagine being 23. I thought 23 was ancient. I was half-convinced I'd be dead on account of having done everything interesting and only facing the prospect of decrepitude of the mid-twenties.
nanji
Apr. 15th, 2004 09:42 pm (UTC)
I'd love to know...
I feel like thinking about reincarnation.
Accepting the possibility of reincarnation, how would you answer the following questions :

1. What type of past incarnation do you feel might have led you to your present incarnation ?

2. What lessons do you feel you are learning in your present incarnation ?

3. What future incarnation do you feel your present existence is leading to ?


I'll put the same invitation on my own journal, so please feel free to come and ask ME awkward questions as well. Good day.

N*
rainsinger
Apr. 16th, 2004 04:07 am (UTC)
Re: I'd love to know...
Ooooh, interesting questions starflake.

1. Probably quite a few of them because I have many different *memories* that get triggered or arise spontaneously, so it feels like I'm tying a lot of different things together. I *remember* incarnations that had a lot to do with power, and the many uses thereof where I've generally been the one with that power and generally used it only for my own gain, whether it was political power, magical power or personal power in terms of charm and seduction.

I think the other contributions of my previous incarnations are allowing me to establish connections with others, I have met a lot of people with whom I have had very powerful bonds (for good or ill) so I think part of it was transforming that- releasing those which no longer served, allowing the more healthy ones to flourish and grow.

My feeling is that a lot of my lives have been quite extreme- a powerful wealthy man in Italy and a pennyless teacher in Korea and so on, and I feel this time around I've got a lot more balance, a lot more of the different elements of the lives combined. I can use power without being a tyrant or a martyr to help empower others (gently), I can expand on past learning and use the knowledge wisely, and really probably for the first time start putting it all together integrating all the different elements to break down limitation push past boundaries (because I feel in my past lives I haven't done that, I've worked within the limitations of the setting).

I think if I think in terms of aspects in astrology (whcih I've just been reading about) then my past life themes have been about oppositions, which stretch you, expand you and this time around I'm working within the energy of the squares (the squares limit, hamper, and I think because they are all such tension aspects they help build the muscles, because with squares the flow of energy is very restricted, hard- I think it means doing what you thought you wouldn't be able to do). There are a lot of squares in my chart (probably yours too then) and I can see them everywhere in my own life- eg. my family don't ease and support, they hamper, they are something against which I must continuosuly strive and work and confront that square energy because this incarnation around I think I have resolved not to be boxed.

2. Power is a big one.How it can be used and abused. What it means to have been violated, helpless, what it means to have given away my own power or had it wrenched from me and what it means to get that power back, and how to be empowering, how to help others do the same. Power with rather than power over (and that i think is a fairly new scenario for me- because I've been the powerful schemer and the sorceress but not the wounded healer).

-Another lesson- moving past labels and limitations; partially following my own career/spiritual path that's unique and eclectic and doesn't have the support of much approval and well-established traditions; partially it also means learning to re-see beauty, how to see the hidden beautiful core of things in me and the things around me (because in past lives I can remember being very bewitching and beautiful, and being the frog princess in this life has been more of a struggle).

-Third big theme: to learn how to let go, whether it's expectations or people or posessions- this is a very hard one for me and I continue to be challenged by it.

3. I think that depends on how much I accomplish, how much I do. I know I've got a lot of potential to fulfill and if I grow too tired, too despairing and kill myself before I've done it then I will probably want another try at a similar scenario (in the sense that doing something really challenging is most often its own reward- because how glorious, how magnificent when you've done it, when you've achieved it, to see yourself as something splendid and divine). But if I do manage, if I do fulfill my potential and prevail against limitations and circumstance then I think I'd quite like a more restful life, more of a *trine* vibration- which facilitates, eases so that I can concentrate on building what is there rather than having to pour my energy into carving a path.
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