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Sadness

Wow. Looks like the day of moodswings and updsates.

I feel so sad.
Like I'm on the verge of cryign my eyes out but just can't make the connection between the physical and the emotional.

I think this is the training from last weekend (to work with childhood sexual abuse survivors) catching up with me. It is really heavy stuff, and it is distressing to fully contemplate.

I don't feel immensely upset, but I do feel down, and low, and weepy. If anyone feels like dispensing some hugs/good vibes/solace I would appreciate it.

Not all is dire though. *Opposite of Sex* is on TV starring the very cool Ms. Christina Ricci. I've seen that movie before and I've forgotten how much I love it. It has an excellent script and great dialogue and it makes me laugh which helps with the blues.

random examples:

*this is America and we are Christians here. Except for a few Jewish people who were just born that way. (...) And that religion John Travolta belongs to*

(...)
*you fucking homo!*
*Randy! Be christ-like*

(..)
*you tok up with them homosexuals. you turned your back on righteousness*
*oh yes, and blowing you in the backseat of your car, i suppose that was a stairway to heaven?*

(...)
my favourite:
*Welcome to the planet Maturia. We have much to teach you*

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coalproximity
Mar. 2nd, 2004 09:27 am (UTC)
sorry you're not feeling good, but maybe this is that good brand of badness where you're working through things and getting somewhere?
anyhow, good *vibes* and much love.
meepettemu
Mar. 2nd, 2004 10:12 am (UTC)
OT, sorry, but prox, your av thing always makes me think you're laughing :o)
rainsinger
Mar. 3rd, 2004 01:57 am (UTC)
It makes me think that she is shouting. :)
That could be the Rosharch for the next generation: wat do you zee in zat icon?
rainsinger
Mar. 3rd, 2004 01:55 am (UTC)
Thank you :)

I think it is the good brand of badness as you put it, but I'm not prepared to get on with anything unless I've had a chance to whine and make self-piteous noises about it first. :P
nanji
Mar. 3rd, 2004 10:53 am (UTC)
i think it's good

I think it's good you're actually feeling INVOLVED in your course enough to care as much as you do, it's good to exercise your feeling muscle considering you will be brought to deal with situations relating to this, whether in your professional or personal life - through whom you meet.

But don't get submerged in the feeling, otherwise you'll be of no use to anyone and yours is a mission of usefulness.


love

N*
rainsinger
Mar. 5th, 2004 03:09 am (UTC)
Re: i think it's good
But don't get submerged in the feeling, otherwise you'll be of no use to anyone and yours is a mission of usefulness.

That's beautifully put my darling. Thank you :)

Love

N )
dubaiyan
Mar. 4th, 2004 12:32 pm (UTC)
*hug*
*hugwhore* :D
rainsinger
Mar. 5th, 2004 03:02 am (UTC)
Re: *hug*
guilty ;)
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